I just love and appreciate my daughter, Eli more than words could ever say. She is such a strength and guiding light in my life. She spends as much time as she can in my room with me so I don't get lonely. She always has the most uplifting things to say to keep me in a positive mindset. She is always looking for ways that I can spend my time productively even though I can't really leave my room until we get that call from UW. She makes sure I get outside at least once a day. I don't know how I did it, but she turned into a very, very special human being and I couldn't be more proud.
Ever since the smoke travelled to our home from the wildfires, I have really been struggling. I tend to feel like I am on a roller coaster but with a blindfold so I never know when I am going to be in an upswing or a downswing - or sometimes doing loop-de-loops! Last night I started to feel like perhaps I was coming out the other side of the tunnel and my levels began to stabilize. I think I may be seeing the end of this flare up and I couldn't be happier! The only thing that gets me through flare ups is being able to look forward to feeling sort of like myself again once it is over. So, fingers crossed and prayers whispered, lets hope I will be feeling better over the next few days!